Let the light in your world shine.

I get and anxious when I try and talk to people
My words don't come out right
It's because I am nervous

After your heart has been broken you kinda get that way
Nervious, insecure, afraid.
I fear that just as before I will not be good enough for anyones attention
So I try and over-compensate for my lack of personality or intelligence
Maybe you'll think I'm funny
Maybe you'll think I'm mysterious and cool
Maybe I'll say the right words
Maybe you'll see that I am scared and lonely and craving your affection,
Or just some sort of acceptance
You see, I don't ask for much
You don't really have to fall in love with me
Maybe if you could just see the real me through all this tattered mess
And see that I am sweet and kind natured
I just don't want to feel rejected
I don't want a constant reminder of past rejection
It's happend so many times that I can't function
It scares me
I just want to be good enough for someone

Most who read this won't understand
They'll say I am over emotional about situations in my life
But they don't understand I hide it as much as I can from everyone
I can only get it out when I write
When I don't have to think who will read this or not
When I can just send it out into the world and hope that people can relate
And so maybe you can understand why I react the way I do